Monday, March 30, 2009

What God Said To Me The Other Day

God has not called me to be successful; He has called me to be faithful
~Mother Teresa

I heard this quote two Saturdays ago during a time where 'success' was an estranged, foreign idea to me. It was during a time when the world had me in its grasp. Where I felt bound and blinded with nothing but whispers of pessimism and failure filling my ears. I didn't feel like I was getting anywhere with my job, my finances were pulling me apart, school was taking everything from me and I didn't feel like I was learning anything. To top it off, I felt very much alone because my friends, the ones who would join me at church and who would help create church services with me, were out drinking at a bar on a Friday night.

Going to a vespers where the next youngest person was five years younger than me and where the topic of the night was resisting alcohol didn't help either.

I don't know how else I can express it. I felt like nothing I was doing was going right. I felt like a failure; that my lifestyle and my devotions were not going to get me very far. I felt like an outcast and that there was no place in this world for someone like me.

I was praying to God; asking Him to talk to me and to tell me that I'm going to be alright. The next day, while I was sitting in church, the speaker quoted the words of Mother Teresa that are written above.

My success doesn't come from how high my GPA is, but that I gave it everything I got.
My success doesn't come from how fat my wallet is, but that I do my job with all the talents God gave me.
My success doesn't come from how much pleasure I can get out of life, but how much I please God.

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